Grandma's in hospital under observation now. Feel so helpless as I wait for 11pm. Mummy don't want me to get down to the hospital so early because there's nothing I can do there. And the observation ward only allow 2 visitor. Uncle's already there with her.

Got grandma down to ttsh at ard 8plus. She looked so pale, can't speak properly, and couldn't walk properly. Really pray that all will be well. Mummy chased me home to settle stuff at home before returning back to fetch her. As I was driving home, I start to reflect and realised how little time I spend with grandma as time passes. Why am I always so busy and caught up with my stuff to even call and talk to her, much less visit her. Suddenly the visiting her once a wk rountine seem so insufficient. She is the one whom I love most, the one I respect most, the one I will nv wanna upset. But how could I be distracted by so many other things that I can't even make time to call her for a chat sometimes? All of a sudden, the feeling of a bad grand-daughter struck me. Muz I be there for her only when she's down? There are so much instances I could have chose to go down to her hse and spend time with her. But where was I? Out with frens or having so fun somewhere.

Juz pray that everything will be fine and there isn't any major.